Hi everyone, just wanted to post my own weight problem. I am 19 years old, 5 foot 1, and currently about 90 lbs. or so. I haven't weighed myself in about a month so I'm not sure of the exact number. I am hoping to gain some weight for next year, hopefully at least 10 pounds. =) I'll be using my blog to track progress and post thoughts.
Allow me to introduce myself...ahem....I am in my early thirties and an administrative assistant at a daycare facility. My life is pretty much sedentary, although I do get out when I can, but work tends to take up much of my time. Next subject....weight. Ugh! The dreaded "W" word. I have struggled with my weight since I was about nine years old. I have done numerous yo-yo diets, taken numerous diet pills, and 'starved' in hopes of becoming thin; however, I failed. For me, my number one New Year's resolution is to lose weight; and every year I fail; so I am hoping that if I have a support group - somewhere I can come and talk about my successes and failures - that this year will finally
be the year that I drop the weight.
Stats: Ht: 5'1" : Wt: 215lbs. (Disgusting I know)
The lowest weight I have been is 155(about five years ago)
Thank you for your attention and your support..
I have been living with/recovering from/relapsing into/battling through eating disorders for about 9 years now, and the climb is always uphill, with freedom and life my final goal, and reward. When I was 16 I spent four months as an in-patient being "treated" for anorexia in a place I likened (and still do) to hell on earth. When I was (mercifully) released and trying to pick up the pieces of my life I began assembling my journal entries and other rants and turned them into a novel, which would now --5 years later-- be considered "semi-autobiographical".
In the new year I will be attempting to find an agent/publisher for the book, entitled I Am Fat
, and as I had heard many horror stories about young writers fighting for their unmarked manuscripts I began trying to think of ways to get my book noticed. One way I thought of was to create a website, with some background info on me, the project, and featuring some sample sections of the larger work. My hope is that people (preferably lots of people: know anyone who might be interested?) will comment on the site, with a few words about the book or even just why stories like these need to be told.
Because they do need to be told. The general public needs to understand more fully what living with an eating disorder is like for real people, without judgement, without hollywood glitz or media frenzy. And people who are suffering --people like you and me-- need to know, remember and hold on to the fact that we are not alone; sadly there is a vast community out there with the same problem, and perhaps together we can find the strength and will to come back to life. After all, if you did not on some level believe this, you would not be in this group.
If you could take just a few minutes to read a section or two, or even just to rant on my blog about E.D's and treatment, I would be so happy to hear from you.
The link is: https://sites.google.com/site/iamfatonline/Home
To leave a comment, please go to the Comments section and you will be linked back to my LJ account, to have your say. So have your say! Share! I will gladly listen, and with your help perhaps a publisher will catch on to my book, and this one small story will urge others to listen also! Never stop having your say.
Thank you for your time!
All the best and the brightest,
I just joined this community today and thought I'd stop in and say hello. My name is Missy and I have been losing weight for the past 3 years. I've lost just over 100 pounds so far. The key for me was changing my foods, changing my attitude and working on and off with a personal trainer (who is now a REALLY good friend of mine).
I started my weight loss journey at 261 pounds...as of right now I am 158 pounds. I'm struggling to get that last little pudge off which sits around my mid-section. I'd like to lose another 15-20 pounds if my body allows me to without looking sickly.
I am recently married as of October 18, 2008...and hoping to start a family next summer! I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you...feel free to add me ♥
I am new to this communtiy. As I have been reading, I am noticing that I am not the only person here with this problem.
My name is Mariposa. I am 28 years old. I am a recovering cocaine addict. I have been clean for 8 years now but that is also when I have started to gain weight. Over the past 8 years, I have gained over 75 lbs. I am quite tiny in hight. Only 5'4'' and I hate the way I look now.
I have a boyfriend of 8 years as well. He means everything to me but the weight issue is hard on our relationship. I don't feel attactive to him anymore. Well, at all actually. There's more to the story but I will save that for later.
Sun, Nov. 16th, 2008, 06:03 am
I had a livejournal years ago but am happy to be back, determined to find support on my path to recovery, and help others struggling with the same diseases/addictions/traumas. I will post tonight on my page a summary of my first step so those of you who want to can get to know me a little better. Thank you all for being here and looking forward to sharing my experiences, struggles, strengths, and hopes.
Has anyone ever tried them? I heard they do help with like skin and hair and of course my main reason weight loss I just got he ones I ordered online from GNC. Please comment and let me know if you have tried them and if they really work!!
Sun, Oct. 19th, 2008, 11:01 pm
Well I'm new to this site so I just thought I would at least say hello to you all!
Hello. This is my first day on livejournal. I stumbled across this community and i found this one to be a perfect fit.
A little about me, and I'll make it short to try not to clog your page.
I was a skinny kid, until I hit middle school. I blew up. I put weight on gradually until I hit 170 in 9th grade. I'm 5'1 (then and now). Practically overnight I gained weight and I was that size all of 9th grade and it was very hard to go through school...in 10th grade I dropped to 160 and that summer I completely lost 30 pounds because I went to a christian camp that barely fed anyone and always were on the move...from then I developed a bit of an eating disorder. I didn't realize it then..but I look back and I remember at one moment having to spit out food because it disgusted me so much. by the end of 11th grade i was 108 pounds, my lowest. I went up and down from then, my heaviest being about 138, and currently I'm 126, trying to lose a few now in fact. My battle with weight was and still is unpleasant. The scale controls my day. Whether its going to be a good or bad one. Faded stretch marks cover me, which create more issues emotionally. I feel like I cannot be beautiful if im not 108 pounds or covering the marks that are strewn across me. the things people say about me- voted prettiest, most desired for marriage, best dressed blah bah blahhh and my outward attitude say otherwise, but inside i feel like i'm dieing and no one seems to care.
Tue, Jun. 24th, 2008, 01:17 am
i didnt know it was possible to hate yourself so much until these past 5 years.
but communities such as these truely relieve my stress about being judged and taunted, and even feeling like i'm the only one.
and for that i truely thank everyone who are a part of this community =]
i know i sound silly, but i really mean it